I have been feeling so… stuckified? Overwhelmed? Drained? Trapped? all of the above??? Likely that last one.

Anyway, I had been trying to write a post on my blog regarding a comment I got a while ago where someone I no longer wished to associate with attacked me by stating that I had sold out my values because I haven’t been able to get to the point in my life where I can safely reclaim my spirituality — I have been dealing with so much that I haven’t been able to look at the very thing this person had decided (for me) was the most important aspect of who I was (for him)…

And I couldn’t explain to him or other Pagan friends or even MYSELF why I was different now that i had gone through the things I have been going through, why I wasn’t ready to deal with things like spirituality and creativity while I was still struggling to find a sense of who I was and where I belonged.

But maybe this is normal? To feel that something has changed, that there is something that shifted, like a ripple in the pond or sand blowing over and covering soemthing up, or just growing to reach higher or farther?

Anway… point being that this has really helped me get to writing the things that I need to write to untangle the thought threads that have been confusing me…

Thanks

Pam/Moon’slark’s last blog post..“Cell phones aren’t CUTE”

So often we run around and move move move hurry hurry hurry and just do what we think we should or have always done. But to take a moment, even a small moment, to notice and acknowledge a given situation and how it affects you is eye opening. To notice change is to change – and those small changes build and build and help guide you to the bigger changes in your life. It’s comforting, no, empowering, to know when you are not happy about something, noticing the small changes can create that shift and move you towards a happier place.

Thanks for the MUCH needed reminder!

The shifts are (usually) slow and small, it only seems huge when you look up and notice how far you’ve come, when you hear the dissonance.

I’m glad you embrace the change, ’cause it happens anyway. Knowing it is going on also gives you some directional control, like pruning a plant.

*hugs*

These things, vestiges of my former, perceived “best lifestyle,” are things not easily gotten rid of, such as a house and 50 pounds of excess body weight.

Jen Mathis’s last blog post..If the object of the game is “give the doll a purple crotch,” I win.

I was just thinking that I’m slowly shifting towards someone who’s a bit of a neat freak, a far, far cry from my slobbish ways, of living out of boxes. It’s taken me a long time to get to this point, to have an apt where I feel safe, where I feel like it’s really MY place, my home and I actually want to take care of it.

I’m also light years away from being the employee who breezes in 10 seconds before the 5 minute grace period ends. I also don’t run to the bus stop anymore, hair flying everywhere. Getting out of bed early, still needs some work, yes. But I am no longer the “late Jess”. And that’s scary to accept in a way.

Thank you for reminding me that it’s okay for me to recognize this shifts that I’m still inherently me, a neater, less stressed out me.

It’s amazing how we change throughout the years, from a child to the teenage years and finally to adulthood. Our needs and desires are always shifting. I’m 24 now and wonder what I’m going to want with my life when I’m 30! Damn, that’s a scary thought.